the thing called happiness

Dear blogs!!! Finally got to meet you again and it always because i try to talk about the things that i can't talk about it to anyone. Soooo. Akhir2 ini banyak bgt hal yg bikin gue hrs trs disabar2in yg mungkin bagi org lain itu cuma hal sepele, cuma hal yg nanti akan lewat seiring berjalannya waktu. Okay ngomongin ttg waktu, ketika waktu itu ditunggu, bukannya semua akan jd terasa lama? Atau ketika kita coba untuk ikhlas semua akan ga terasa. Idk. Karena pd point ini gue ngerasa gue udh hampir keabisan akal untuk bikin diri gue tetep berpikir positive, dan akan gue jabarkan disini. 1. That financial problem yg ga kunjung usai dan hampir gaada titik terangnya, bahkan gue udh gatau lg gimana caranya gue minta uang sm nyokap ketika gue tau nyokap bener2 lelah untuk mengatur semua keuangan ini. I barely didn't got my personal money from a couple months ago. Dan udh ga beraturan lg uang jajan yg gue dpt itu. Karena setiap gue minta uang cuma ya sedikasihnya aja. Atau emg kalo ada

Jadi lagi2 gue nulis karena gue gabisa tidur.... Dan mengingat gue ngetik judul post kali ini kaya gt gue jd mau cerita sedikit... Ehm. According to my last post and remember the current video i just watched on youtube about islamic stuffs, and how to face our life. Gue mulai dpt pencerahan yg sebenernya ini adalah sesuatu hal yg emg gue udh ketahuin dr dulu tp. Gue mulai sedikit sadar tadi. Kalo di post gue yg sebelumnya gue lbh ngomongin soal jodoh/percintaan idealisme gue seperti apa. Tp di post yg ini gue mau cerita lbh ke ttg jodoh dlm islam itu sendiri. Jd ceritanya abis nonton beberapa short movie dan dakwah dr salah satu anak pendakwah di negeri ini *ea. Gue merasa kayanya gue perlu untuk ngerasa bersalah akan hal2 yg gue lakuin dulu waktu gue punya pacar atau apapun khilaf yg skrng2 gue lakuin dan open minded gue ttg islam ini cukup menampar. Dmn gue ngerasa jauuuuuuh msh jauuuuuh bgt dr seorang muslimah yg sempurna. Pemikiran gue ttg pacaran jg sepertinya salah walaupun gue

When i tried to reach the things that i wanted in life it  always took a long time. But at the end its somehow end up sastisfied. Well its just "a thing" not a whole things in life. I believe that work hard could make a big energy that will build up and make everything that you wish for happen, then suddenly i think that is the circle of life. If you work hard a fortune will come to you. Did you think that time will worth the wait? Just like the stuffs you want sooooo bad but you spend your money on it after you save your money. But not in all the things in life i belive will worth the wait or i just feel that is a kind of fortune like maybe its a destiny from god. Just like love. Or carrer. Okay lets talk about a lucky love life. I heard so many stroies about true love and a lucky love seems to be so hard to get in it. Like i mean youve got your love too soon and you getting married with the one who u dated the last. But how if the case is you need a long time to see wh

Well firstly i want to thanks god about having such a lovely friends around me its start when i was in jhs till college and they make my life  more brighter. I always convince myself that if i have them in my life, my life would be easier. Is that you guys think so about me? Or its only me who think that youre as precious as i thought. Well i dont want to make this complicated, but recently i feel like friendship are going to be really hard each day. Hard to keep them always around you. Like you're not that important to them :( i feel sad and i feel so unacceptable :( like im not someone's priority not anymore :( And its starts when my long holiday coming.... And somehow i think that maybe i feel sad bcs i dont have any activity to do and feel so bored then i plan such a pretty big holiday with some of my friends. Its starts from my jhs friends, shs friends, and college friends. But everything that we planned (or its only me) failed. And theres so much reason for it for each

Well it has nothing related to my old post yg super labil ituuu cause now im gonna share about my recently activity (well its not a physically activity) its make up. YES. Every woman favourite activity to do. And im gonna say that yes. I admit. I start to concern more about make up. Why? Idk. I feel like maybe im not a professional bcs i just did some of superbb easy make up everyday look just like "no make up make up" every beauty vlogger have to post. Yup. I want smoothin my everyday no make up make up look. Bcs this is basically super easy make up every woman have to know and practicing. Ok why im gonna talk about this? Bcs i feel like im mature enough to know this basic knowledge about make up. Bcs maybe i will need this somehow or its literally what womans do. Turn into indonesia Awalnya gue pikir gue bakal ya tetep make up biasa aja you know? Yg gapake countur or even bronze (karena gue emg gabisa) dan 1 lagi kekurangannya, gue gapunya uang untuk beli berbagai maca

Well the final exam is FINALLY over and i didnt expect so much except me pass all of the subject honestly i didnt too satisfied with my work....... So far. Bcs idk i feel like when im in a class and then the lecture came i show up that i listen to what they said so me with my confident really sure that i didntt have to make such effort over and over again to finally learn all of the subject to meet the final exam. you know what? its REALLY TIRING really, like i have to study so many subject and i have a not so long term capacity to remember all of the subject all of the stuffs bcs theres so much things on my mind too. And i know my capabilities so im not really take effort in final exam and idk its only my reason bcs im so lazy or thats the real reason why i didnt make myself study hard. idk really im tired with accounting and finance and stuff like that, since im in college all of the subject were talking about money meanwhile i dont have money and i realize i count "money gh

Gues what? Today is someones birthday?? Yes. Its me -_- i dont know which one a good intro for this post. But i know whats the point of my post i want to share with who dare to read this. I realized that i went through a LOT of birthday this past year especially. And idk its me or everyone who think feel the same about what im gonna say, but as long as i went through my born day. Everyone starts to forget about my actually birthday date and its getting bored each year. Well i know im officially 20th and its an "old" years yet to feel so childish thinking that eveyone forget my birthday. Well i didnt expect anything except my best friend remember my birthday. And i knew now its sucks enough to think that ur best friend who did through some years of ur birthday and suddenly forget your birthday now :( and one thing. this years is sooo hard for my birthday bcs i have to past my class today, sleepless night bcs i have to do my personal tasks and then going to take attention for

Whats the meaning of goal is for everyone? Life need some goals. And everyone has to. Lately, ive been in the middle of hectic period and i think its gonna be so hard for me to focus on many things, (and i hope this one tho soon to be over). Dan sepertinya gue udh mulai terbiasa dengan semua ini dan tanpa disadari gue sedang melakukan goals gue yg sebelumnya, not clean yet smooth to be but im grateful cause im gonna finish it. Yay. Jd dengan penuh ketelatenan dan kesabaran yg hampir aja bikin meledak lagi gue yakin semua goals pd bulan ini dapat tercapai not just in a month but in a years and future to be. But sadly in this year i have just one thing to be fix of mean while its a long holiday for us but yes, i have to finish my semester pendek yg pada akhirnya harus gue ambil dan gue jalanin :( gue gatau harus gimana tp gue bener2 harus sp in matkul ini walau dengan berbagai macam kesedihan yg gue alamin karena terpaksa akhirnya sp.... Well the goals must be disturbed which is my pla

Hi good people Ada satu hal didunia ini yang gabisa kita paksain, cinta. Ada perbedaan antara "benci jd cinta" dan "memaksa untuk mencintai". Rasanya emang ga adil ketika kita mencintai orang, dan org tersebut tidak memiliki hal yg sama karena pada dasarnya cinta tidak bertepuk sebelah tangan. Lain hal nya dengan "benci jd cinta" karena pada dasarnya itu hanya cover dari sebuah buku. Kita gaakan pernah tau seseorang seperti apa tanpa mengenalnya. Ketika memang cinta adalah takdir, sebenarnya tanpa perlu usaha keras, mereka akan datang dengan sendirinya, karena cinta datang tanpa disengaja, tanpa diundang, dan tanpa direncanakan.

Honestly, akhir2 ini gue suka dilanda cemas dan emosi yang berlebihan. Bahkan terkadang gue berfikir, apakah gue yg salah? Or people being so sucks. Sebelum gue menyalahkan keadaan dan orang lain gue selalu berfikir positif tentang org tersebut. Biasanya. Mungkin gue emg harus memahami mereka selayaknya gue ada di posisi mereka. But they're have so many unreasonable stuff sometimes. And i hate that. Dan rasanya disini gue mau membahas lebih soal komitmen. Thats the point why people being so sucks. Karena mereka tidak memahami komitmen yang mereka buat sendiri. I wont judge someone. I just wanna said that apa yg org blg kalo lidah tidak bertulang itu ternyata perumpaan yang benar dan bisa dikaitkan dengan ini. Komitmen. Menjaga amanah. Dan setidaknya menepati janji yg udh terlanjur terucap oleh mulut sendiri. Yang bagi sebagian org its okay buat nyepelein hal2 yg emg ga penting tp di balik itu semua ada perasaan seseorang yang perlu di hormati, setidaknya meskipun itu bukan hal yang