the thing called happiness

Well the final exam is FINALLY over and i didnt expect so much except me pass all of the subject honestly i didnt too satisfied with my work....... So far. Bcs idk i feel like when im in a class and then the lecture came i show up that i listen to what they said so me with my confident really sure that i didntt have to make such effort over and over again to finally learn all of the subject to meet the final exam. you know what? its REALLY TIRING really, like i have to study so many subject and i have a not so long term capacity to remember all of the subject all of the stuffs bcs theres so much things on my mind too. And i know my capabilities so im not really take effort in final exam and idk its only my reason bcs im so lazy or thats the real reason why i didnt make myself study hard. idk really im tired with accounting and finance and stuff like that, since im in college all of the subject were talking about money meanwhile i dont have money and i realize i count "money gh

Gues what? Today is someones birthday?? Yes. Its me -_- i dont know which one a good intro for this post. But i know whats the point of my post i want to share with who dare to read this. I realized that i went through a LOT of birthday this past year especially. And idk its me or everyone who think feel the same about what im gonna say, but as long as i went through my born day. Everyone starts to forget about my actually birthday date and its getting bored each year. Well i know im officially 20th and its an "old" years yet to feel so childish thinking that eveyone forget my birthday. Well i didnt expect anything except my best friend remember my birthday. And i knew now its sucks enough to think that ur best friend who did through some years of ur birthday and suddenly forget your birthday now :( and one thing. this years is sooo hard for my birthday bcs i have to past my class today, sleepless night bcs i have to do my personal tasks and then going to take attention for