the thing called happiness

bad bad bad bad tomorrow is one of the days that i don't want to pass, yes. bagi rapot ;_; This makes me more scared, nervous, and dizzy as well :s after 'dia' problems, now i must to go to school tommorow, and i never and ever to come tommorrow with mom, let alone *sigh* i'm really scared if my scores it feels 'nyesek' again, such as time of grade 8 :'( and the real bad part of tommorrow is I MUST TO GO but i never want to go! and of course, in my class, everyone like a children of einstein they're really really cleaver and brilliant, they're just not like me, who silly and stupid girl and of course the value of science, i will not enter the average, and the more i fear is getting a poor grade is also on the lessons that others, especially social studies, oh god what happened with me? since i'm at SBI school choice, i didn't get the good score ehm i mean 'not really' at least enter my average and i was very grateful and then my paren

yaah gue gabisa ceritain sambungan dari post gue yg waktu itu, sekarang yaaah gue fokus dulu sama yang sekarang! ganyangaka waktu di 2010 cepet banget, dan bentar lagi udah 2011 gue ngerasa banyak hal yg gaadil tahun ini, nyesek, dan hal sebagainya contohnya yg sekarang gue alamin, mungkin salah gue juga kenapa gue harus sebegitu takutnya yaaah 'dia' ulang tahun tapi sampe sekarang gue belom ngucapin, yaah gue sempet ngucapin tapi diapus ;_; sekarang gue gatau harus ngucapin lagi atau nggak sebenernya hal2 kayak gini gapenting banget untuk dipikirin, diurusin, dibuat pusing :s yah tapi itu pemikiran orang yg hidupnya terlalu santai, tapi buat gue rasanya berat, susah, dan yang jelas takut! iya, takut lo bayangin 3kali iya 3kali gue sempet nyapa dan dia gabales, bahkan pernah sampe gue off dan nangis *gaguna banget gue* halo?! hidup masih panjang lo gabakal mati besok car. nah, semenjak itu gue gaberani dan takut makan ati buat nyapa dia lagi, mungkin gue yg keterlaluan karena m

yaaa yesterday i'm really happy because i spend my time with my best friends ^.^ we go to watch narnia!! tapii sayangnya ada 3 temen kita yang ga ikut nonton tapi yang satu sebenernya bisa, dia dateng tapi ga nonton (sama aja boong) -.- yep her almost makes me and my friends slightly dissapointed :( but..i'm tottally fun yesterday except.. i'am meet yep u know "someone" who i don't want to meet her, i'm saw her for a momment then i think she didn't see me abis itu kita nonton narnia dan ketemu anisa sebentar doang -.- filmnya bagus banget, gue nonton sambil cekikikan sama rani yaaah kita ketawa2 gajelas gara2 the lone island sama edmund yang gantengnya parah itu. abis itu kita pulang deh dan membeli surprised buat temen gue, terus gue beli bando aneh looh aha -__-- oiya ini desember i almost forget to tell you US about this month, yeah i think this month will be the same with the other month, nothing can change my life will be better right? -.- (bersyu

yes. i'm kinda bored of this life. yup especially now, this month and this year, capek banget tiap hari rasanya gue cuma pusing sama urusan sekolah ditambah lagi belum tentu gue sekolah capek fisik doang kadang2 ada juga some people yup that make me mad sometimes~ udah capek fisik ditambah capek hati juga kaan, belom lagi jum'at kemaren gue sama beberapa temen gue dimarahin guru ganyante, guru yang bisanya nyari2 kesalahan muridnya dan anehnya dia "baik" (dalem tanda kutip) sama murid cowok?! aneh ya? emang. terus jum'at minggu depannya ternyata dia ngajar gitudeh di ruangan gue. gue telat masuk lagi kan, terus nanya2 gitu kayak buat gue gondok ish. yaudah terus nyuruh2 gue jawab pertanyaan geje lah. yup i really really not in the mood. esp minggu ini bahkan gue harus sekolah pas sabtu yah oke gue coba buat positive thinking, tapi sekarang susah banget woy buat itu,tiap hari rasanya capek, pusing pulang2 rasanya ngeliat tempat tidur kayak surgaaa banget, jum'a